Being yourself and all aren't easy as it seem. you tried but some people just dont understand and that is quite a problem, i guess. as things had happened and ups and downs had happened, i tried to move on as my own self and trying to figure things out the right way so that it isn't so awkward all the time. i had put the past behind and what had happened, happened! there's nothing to be done and there is no way to bring it back. i moved on but some people dont and it is hard on me as i can't be natural because it's always so awkward when we have a conversation. Yes, that's right i called the ex but it didn't mean anything. i called because i think we are still friends and there is nothing wrong about a friend calling. i tried to make it so good and fun but he just made it so awkward by his favourite "SILENT" thing. no wonder it doesnt work because he never make a conversation better not even me laughing out loud. probably me smiling. what's so hard about it. he speak in such a nice way like we have a thing going on when there's none. did he realize that it is over? dont talk to me that way because i get annoyed of people trying to be nice to me when they are not. it's just fake. why dont people start being real and be straight because that way, i think it will be lot easier to understand and get things right.
i dont mean bad but please dont lie to yourself.
peace out.
-
-=[JoVitA a.k.a Wawi]=-|
8:59 PM
-
i was reading my messages...the past messages. i just remembered that i forgot about everything. things that had been done and things that ive craved back then. reading it gave me the feelings. i miss everything that i had...every person that come and go in my life. i miss them very much. i dont know if i've had them because you can't lose what you never had. if i do, i really want them back. i dont know if it is real. if it is, i wanna be real too. i miss how i used to love someone. now, i forgot how. even though i wanted to, they dont let me. it is so hard to find them and be friends again. i wonder how....
i just wish to meet again and start all over again.
Amen.
-
-=[JoVitA a.k.a Wawi]=-|
11:03 PM
-
